....she is me. i should feel so ashamed, so disgusted with myself. part of me does. part of me is sad. is this the girl i am?
batman started dating the brunette barbie at work. she is quite pretty and as stupid as they come. has already slept with quite a few of the other staff. im biased of course but....slut!! they were just screwing around but he told me today that as of thursday they are now a couple. he is supposed to be leaving somewhere between august and november to work on a cruise ship. its his version of running away. he rekons that if we try again and it works then he won't be able to leave and he really needs to get away. sounds like the easy way out to me.
batman and i were just talking but it never ends that way. he was lying down with his head on my lap and started stroking my hair. i want to say that it was when he kissed me that there was no turning back but it would be a lie. it was more around the time i walked in the door. we have been fighting at work. he yells, i talk back, he sulks, i cry. after a raging argument last week we decided that pehaps we should try hanging out and that we should try to talk things out.
so this is how it happens. i don't like her but then thats not an excuse. i love him but that isn't an excuse either. he said he isn't going to tell her. some people never change.
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