at about 6pm on wednesday night my precious china girl tried to take her own life.

something in a tearful phone conversation alerted the bf who ran home to find her sitting in the apartment beside an empty bottle of antidepressants. an ambulance took her to the emergency room and her two closest friends rushed to be with her.

it is the phone call you don't ever think you will get. it is the seemingly endless hours of waiting when you don't know what to say. it is the most awful moment on the way to hospital when you stop to think and suddenly reaslie that the friend who you love and adore could have been gone forever.

the bf tells me she has talked about it before. the parents that drove her to it seem unmoved by the near loss of their daughter, writing it off as a stunt. nothing will change. we are all far to scared to think about next time when perhaps no-one will be there to catch our precious china girl before she falls.