i apoligise for my absence recently. i was working about sixty hours a week at my two jobs in order to save some money before going back to university. at the end of this year i want to go to cambodia and visit my dad who i havnt seen in two years. I also want to fulfill my lifelong dream of going to new york in the mid year break in 2007.

unfortunatly my annoyingly lovley dentist told me this afternoon that the bill for the work i need done is just over a thousand dollars. apparently the shape of my back teeth means they are basically food traps and hence i now need four fillings.

the money carefully set aside is as good as gone. the hours of hard work all for nothing. it seems that as soon as i make headway and really try for something that it falls apart around me. while everyone else was enjoying their holiday i was working everyday because i beleive that if you want something badly enough and work hard enough you can make it happen.

they say that one must suffer tremendous dissapointment and struggle to truley appreciate sucess. i wish i could just be happy with where i am, with an average life. on good days i wonder how it is that people live without a dream. on days like today i am certain that they are better off with their white picket fence existance. those already on lying in the gravel do not have far to fall when life decides to kick them to the ground.